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I did not chase God;
I stripped away what
was blocking Him.

This did not begin in light.It began in fracture.A marriage breaking.
Isolation closing in.
Darkness that wasn’t poetic, but suffocating.The divorce in 2020 forced me inward. There was nowhere else to look. I began dissecting everything — why it happened, how it happened, who I had been inside of it. The mask began to fall. Identity began to unravel. Every false layer in me and around me started to surface.There were nights in Greenfield, Indiana from 2020 to 2021, and later in Fishers, Indiana from 2021 to 2023, where my living room became a desert. Not metaphorically, but existentially. I stripped my life down to the floor. Silence. No stimulation. No noise. No escape. I sat in it the way others go into wilderness.I wasn’t looking for God.I was trying not to disintegrate.My body felt like it was failing. My nervous system was overloaded. My thoughts were heavy. Something in me felt like it was dying.For years I believed something was physically wrong with me. Doctors couldn’t explain what I was experiencing. It wasn’t until much later that I began to understand it differently. What I had mistaken for my body dying felt more like the collapse of an old identity. The life I had been living no longer fit what was unfolding within me. What felt like death was the painful shedding of everything false.And I began to see something else.The poison.In the food.
In the air.
In the products we rub on our skin.
In the water.
In the noise.
In the constant digital stimulation.We are surrounded by distortion and call it normal.So I did what didn’t make sense to most people.I fasted.
I detoxed.
I removed chemicals, stimulants, and processed food.
I studied breath.
I studied stillness.
I regulated my nervous system.
I sat alone for hours.
I let the noise burn out.Not for enlightenment.For survival.The divorce stripped identity.
Isolation stripped ego.
Detox stripped inflammation.
Silence stripped distraction.When obstruction leaves, something moves.I wasn’t praying for an encounter. I wasn’t reading theology trying to manufacture something mystical.I was cleaning the vessel.And when the vessel cleared enough, something undeniable happened.Not belief.
Not imagination.
Not emotion.Flow.It felt as though the current people speak of throughout Scripture—the living intelligence behind existence—could move through me without resistance.Physical.Tangible.Coherent.I did not chase it.I removed what was blocking it.And then in 2023, everything shifted again.I was pulled out.Out of the United States.
Out of familiarity.
Out of the life I had known.Travel through Central and South America followed. Movement that didn’t feel random. It felt directed. Guided. It stripped away even more.Friends and family began seeing me through fogged perception. Not as I was, but as their own distortion projected. Relationships fell away. Not through hatred, but through separation.Perhaps God isolates those who truly seek Him.Or perhaps He simply removes what no longer aligns.What pulled me away dissolved.
What did not serve fell off.
What was false collapsed.I now write this from Colombia, whether temporarily or permanently, I don’t yet know. But I do know this:Nothing about this path was accidental.The awakening did not come from geography.It came from collapse in a quiet room in Indiana.Travel only confirmed what silence revealed.The current did not vanish two thousand years ago.It was never gone.Most people are not separated from God by distance.They are separated by distortion.Biological.
Psychological.
Environmental.Inflammation clouds perception.
Poison dulls awareness.
Noise fractures attention.
Ego protects illusion.When the vessel clears, truth becomes obvious.This platform exists because I stumbled into something real while trying to survive my own collapse.I’m not here for money.I’m not here for fame.I’m here because I know the way back is biological, psychological, and spiritual alignment—not blind belief.The mask was stripped.The false fell away.I walk in truth.The signal never stopped.We did.